Vicious Cycle

I've been biting my tongue for several weeks, but that stops today. I have never in my life met anyone else with such an incapacity to form lasting friendships. It seems that some people just want or need to be mad about something at all times. You'll blame it on me... claiming I did this, that, or the other to make you mad. I'm not taking the blame this time though. Take note that I'm the one who's managed to keep the same core group of friends for years, while you just cycle through yours... picking and choosing who you're going to be pissed off at next. I know this cycle well...

Seasons change... but people don't.

It's Almost Halloween!!

It's finally October, which means it's almost Halloween!!! I finally decorated the house, I'm super excited now. I think I've finally perfected my halloween mix on my iPod as well..... take a look, and if you think of something I missed, let me know!!




1. The Addams family Theme Song
2. Beetlejuice Theme Song
3. Heffalumps and Woozles
4. Nightmare on my street- The Fresh Prince and DJ Jazzy Jeff
5. I want Candy- Bow Wow Wow
6. Halloween Theme- John Carpenter
7. Superfreak- Rick James
8. Thriller- Michael Jackson
9. Freaks come out at night- Whodini
10. Ghostbusters
11. Witch Doctor- Sha Na Na
12. Another one bites the dust- Queen
13. The Funeral March
14. Tubular Bells
15. Purple People Eater
16. Sweet Dreams- Marilyn Manson
17. Tales from the Crypt Theme
18. This is Halloween- Marilyn Manson
19. Friday the 13th Theme
20. Phantasm- Criss Angel
21. Boogie Wonderland
22. Pet Sematary- The Ramones
23. Halloween- Aqua
24. If I was your vampire- Marilyn Manson
25. Bad Things- Jace Everett
26. Ding Dong! The Witch is Dead!
27, Evil Ways- Santanna
28. Black Cat- Janet Jackson
29. Love Potion Number 9
30. Jeepers Creepers
31. The Time Warp- Rocky Horror Picture Show
32. Funeral March for a Marionette
33. Halloween- Sonic Youth
34. Living Dead Girl- Rob Zombie
35. It's Almost Halloween- Panic at the Disco
36. Toccata and Fugue
37. Twilight Zone Theme
38. This is Halloween- Panic at the Disco
39. Abracadabra
40. Feed my Frankenstein- Alice Cooper
41. The Devil Went Down to Georgia- Charlie Daniels Band
42. Harry Potter Theme
43. Highway to Hell- ACDC
44. Sanctified- Nine Inch Nails
45. Somebody's Watching Me- Rockwell
46. Men in Black- Will Smith
47. The Munsters Theme
48. Werewolves of London
49. I'm your boogie Man
50. Teenage Frankenstein- Alice Cooper
51. Witchy Woman- The Eagles
52. The Monster Mash
53. x-files theme
54. Little Red Riding Hood- Sam the Sham & the Pharoahs
55. I put a spell on you

Finally... some time to breathe!

The past week has been pretty eventful. My best friend’s wedding was on Saturday… and it was pretty much a disaster. I don’t think we could have had worse weather. It got to the point where it was almost comical. There was drama all weekend, but we had a really good time after the wedding was finally over.

I, however, was a basket case by the time Sunday morning rolled around. If there was ever a question about whether I truly needed my anti-depressant, I found the answer. I forgot to pack my medicine, so I missed three days worth of pills. You have not seen crazy until you see someone who abruptly stopped taking their mood stabilizer. All I could do was cry…. Seriously, It was bad. I’m finally starting to level out again, so that’s nice. Three cheers to better living through Chemistry.

Work has been pure chaos. We’ve been in the process of trying to get nationally accredited, and it’s been insane. All that finally ended yesterday, so it seems no one is doing a damn thing today, haha. All of our supervisors are in a different county for the day, and as they say…. “when the cats are away, the mice will play”.

I’m going to Kate’s tonight to look at the wedding photos. I’m really excited about it. I know the conditions were horrible, but I have tons of faith that Kate was able to get some really good photos. I love love love looking at pictures, but I really love when they’re pictures that involve me. What can I say; I might be a tad bit narcissistic!! LOL

I’m looking forward to getting back on the exercise bandwagon. I’ve not had a great deal of time to dedicate to the gym lately due to the wedding and all that. I’m hoping to start seeing results again soon. I’ve decided that once I lose 40 lbs, I’m going to have my teeth whitened… it’s like a mini-reward for my mini-goal.

Time heals.... but there will always be scars

I had a dream last night that just wouldn't end. If I woke up and went back to sleep, the dream pick right back up where it had left off. When I finally woke up this morning, I realized that my heart really isn't as intact as I'd like to think it is.
Someone from my past is coming back for good... though not in the way that I had originally envisioned. I had made so much progress. I'd finally broken the habit and gotten to the point where "just friends" really was possible. February came, and he ruined it all... and I got sucked right back in. In a 10 days time, I gave him the power to hurt me all over again... and he did, of course. I believed every word he said, and I fell for it. And for that... I'm angry.
He's coming back with her... I never thought it would actually happen. I didn't think he'd really marry someone else. Six years ago, this is not what I'd envisioned for either one of us.
It's like a ticking timebomb right now. It's only a matter of time until I run into him or both of them.... and when I do I'm fairly certain that my heart will be broken that much more.

On the verge of a serious meltdown...

So, I'm sitting at Park West Hospital because my mom is having bilateral total knee replacement (both knees). I was smart enough to remember to bring my laptop so I'd have something to do while my dad and I wait... as the surgery is going to take about 5 hours or so. Well.... turns out, my laptop isn't all that helpful to me right now. I can't access facebook, I can't access twitter, and I'm seriously on the verge of tears. It seems I can go to every site that I've got saved in my favorites, but not facebook. UGH! What the hell amd I gonna do for the next 5 hours? Seriously?

A Fail of Epic proportions

Seriously... these kinds of things ONLY happen to me. What are the chances of this? I seriously couldn't make this shit up.

1.) Christy meets Boy #1
2.) Christy kind of likes Boy #1
3.) Christy meets boy #2
4.) Christy kind of likes Boy #2
5.) Christy is hanging out with boy #2 at his condo
6.) Boy #2's roommate comes home.....
7.) Boy #2's roommate happens to be boy #1 (no, I did NOT know this).
8.) Christy wants to crawl in the nearest hole.
9.) Neither boy is amused....
10.) EPIC FAIL...DAMN IT!!

Random treasures in the form of words....

"The Crisis of today becomes the joke of tomorrow." <---- oh, how true that seems to be.

It's been a good night for quotes. I heard these lyrics on the end of a tv show earlier... "you gotta suffer alot to be happy... you gotta fight a few wars to make peace." For some reason, it means something to me... I just can't figure out exactly why.

Really? Who gets an upper respiratory infection in the SUMMER?!?!?

So, this has pretty much been the story of my life for the past 4 or 5 days. I'm pretty certain I've managed to cough up both lungs and possibly my pancreas. I feel like death warmed over, yet I'm still having to work. It seems like all of my cases are blowing up and going straight to hell in a handbasket. I'm stressed out... and I feel like I'm about one phone call away from crawling under my desk and rocking back and forth. I'm officially not on call anymore as of today... THANK GOD!! I haven't been able to go to the gym since i've been sick, which is making me feel even worse. I'm thinking about trying to suck it up tonight and at least go to yoga or something. Oh well... I'm guess I should get back to saving the world (or whatever it is that people "think" I do around here... ugh

P.S. I had the strangest dream last night. I dreamed I was on vacation with Amanda and and some friends from high school and people started disappearing from the beach.... then I started finding people's heads attached to my shower rod. Do you think i'm seriously disturbed or do you think the $50 prescription cough medicine has gotten to me?

Being a Social Worker Means...

You will never be bored.
You will always be frusturated.
You will be surrounded by challenges.
So much to do and so little time.
You will carry immense responsibility
and very little authority.
You will step into people's lives
and you will make a difference.
Some will bless you
Some will curse you.
You will see people at their worst~
and their best.
You will never cease to be amazed
at people's capacity for
love, courage, and endurance.
You will see life begin~and end.
You will experience resounding triumphs
and devastating failures.
You will cry a lot.
You will laugh a lot.
You will know what it is to be human
and to be humane.

Just keep swimming...

Wow.. It's been a while since I've posted anything on here. Nothing too exciting is going on. A few boys have come and gone, a few health issues have arisen, I sustained a concussion and hurt my ankle, and that's about it. The ankle is back to normal now, the headaches have gone away, and the boys aren't worth the breath it would take to discuss them. About the only positive thing that's happened is that I joined a gym with my best friend, and we are super motivated. I've also started a new blog to document my successes and failures during my weight loss adventure. Feel free to check it out too, If you want. Click here Anyway, that's it for now I suppose. Now it's back to the exciting adventures of life at DCS. Good times

"If we see you smoking we will assume you are on fire and take appropriate action. "

I stopped smoking, finally. I have not had a cigarette in 10 days. In all honesty, I haven't even wanted one... up until this very moment. I'm not going to give in... I'm going to be a trooper and stick with it. I managed to quit once before, and had an easy time of it for almost 3 years.... until I started this damn job. Would it be wrong to replace smoking with drinking? LOL. I'm kidding, of course.

My life has a superb cast, but I can't figure out the plot...

It’s not that I’m trying to make things complicated… it’s just that they seem to get all tangled up on their own. I feel like the more I try to fix the situations the worse they get. It’s like having bubble gum in your hair… the more you mess with it the worse the mess gets. I hate feeling like I want two very different things at the same time… I wish there was some clear cut answer. I’m conflicted. I need some time, I need clarity, and I need to figure out how to get both of these things without wounding anyone’s ego or screwing up my own opportunities. I can’t seem to see the forest for the trees.

Adventures in Chattanooga!!

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Your body is a temple...

...but how long can you live in the same house before you redecorate?

I got my first tattoo on Saturday. I'm incredibly happy with it. I'd been thinking about the location for about a year, and finally settled on a design about 6 months ago. I held out for 6 months just to be sure, but I finally went for it on Saturday. I went with a group of friends to Chattanooga over the weekend, and we all got tats at Standard Ink. Everyone there was incredibly nice, and did a great job of calming my nerves. I got voted to go first because all my friends thought I would chicken out once they started getting theirs. I've got to say though, the pain wasn't nearly as bad as I'd anticipated. I'd compare it to a bee sting, honestly.

At the bottom, you'll see a picture. It's in between the size of a nickel and a quarter and located on the inside of my left wrist. I originally started out wanting a heart, but then I found this design and decided that it was absolutely perfect for me. Anyone who knows me knows that I absolutely LOVE music (not because I play or sing, but because you'd be hardpressed to find a time when I'm not listening to music on my iPod or on the computer). So, when I saw this design, I knew I could have the best of both worlds... music notes that make a heart... that's what I like to call perfection. Anyway, take a look and let me know what you think!!

24 going on 10

I just had a life-altering discovery... my mother is always going to be effing crazy.

I'm almost 25 years old, I've lived by myself for over a year, I pay all my own bills, I'm incredibly independent...and my mother still feels the need to tell me how to live my life. Is this something that will ever change? I'm beginning to think not. I mean, seriously... I'm almost 25 years old! What does it matter who I went to Chattanooga with or why I went? Why does it matter if I plan to go to a cabin with some friends for the Fourth of July? Why does it matter how I'm paying for my trips as long as I'm not asking you for money, not doing anything illegal to obtain the money, and as long as Im not neglecting my other bills? Why does it matter who I am or am not dating? Why does it matter if some of my friends are married and/or have children? Does that make them less of a friend? I don't think so. What does it matter if I like to have a Margarita with dinner from time to time, or if I just got a tattoo?

I guess what I'm getting at is the fact that I'm almost 25 years old, I have never been arrested, done drugs, or gotten in any trouble. I've managed to make it this long without having any problems... so why is it that my mother acts like I don't have enough sense to make my own decisions? It seems I've done pretty well thus far... without any help from her, I might add. I'm teetering on the edge of insanity and my mother seems to be trying her best to push me over the edge. How am I supposed to deal with it all? She seems to think I'm 24 going on 10.... and clearly, I'm not.