I had a dream last night that just wouldn't end. If I woke up and went back to sleep, the dream pick right back up where it had left off. When I finally woke up this morning, I realized that my heart really isn't as intact as I'd like to think it is.
Someone from my past is coming back for good... though not in the way that I had originally envisioned. I had made so much progress. I'd finally broken the habit and gotten to the point where "just friends" really was possible. February came, and he ruined it all... and I got sucked right back in. In a 10 days time, I gave him the power to hurt me all over again... and he did, of course. I believed every word he said, and I fell for it. And for that... I'm angry.
He's coming back with her... I never thought it would actually happen. I didn't think he'd really marry someone else. Six years ago, this is not what I'd envisioned for either one of us.
It's like a ticking timebomb right now. It's only a matter of time until I run into him or both of them.... and when I do I'm fairly certain that my heart will be broken that much more.
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